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Hey there! I'm Bri.

Mostly, I fandom. Sometimes, I talk about my personal problems or other things, generally in f-locked posts. I'm mostly over on tumblr (main), tumblr (SPN), and AO3 these days, but I still update here. Everything I post here is crossposted at DW.

You can find my fanfiction masterpost here and, if that looks to be out of date, under my fanfiction tag.

Friending is always open. :)
 I'm just exhausted. 

Everything makes me tired. Don't know if it's culture shock, or just general working/teaching/etc. etc. 

I've very tired. 

This entry was originally posted at http://mako-lies.dreamwidth.org/153926.html.
My internet's been down because for some unfathomable reason, I have two internet bills (only one of which actually looks like a bill). All connected again. 

Considering picking up FFVII for the PS4, since my PS3 is still stateside. (Such a mistake to leave it, hahahaha). 

I've been writing self-indulgent fic. Monica & Prompto bodyswap fic that explores some of the personal/political failings (lol I should really watch Kingsglaive, I guess). A angsty exploration of Kisumi/Makoto. My fandom interests are all over the place rn, to be honest. 

Japan is Japan. I'm really enjoying my time here, but the things that upset me/made me anxious in America make me upset/anxious here. Plus the added language barrier. Learning Japanese is a struggle, but I'm doing my best. I'm staying another year, at least. Likely, I'll stay until the education system isn't being run by that terrible woman. :/ Otherwise, I might just find a new profession in the US. IDK. 

Finding my groove teaching here, I think. It's difficult not having my own classroom, especially since I think I'm more qualified than a lot of my teachers are??? These textbooks many of my teachers cling to religiously are.... pretty goddamn terrible. Ah and rote memorization. And the completely awful homework the kids have to do. Sometimes I just want to scream endlessly about student-led learning, task-basked and dialogical pedagogy. But there's only so much I can do when I'm in an assistant position. :/ I like all of my teachers as people, but working with some of them makes me want to scream and/or cry. 

Still, it's gratifying that even when I mess up a lesson, or something flops, that it's still better than sitting and reading the textbook for fifty minutes. 

This entry was originally posted at http://mako-lies.dreamwidth.org/153756.html.



So I finished ffxv. For the most part, I guess I enjoyed it. Don’t get me wrong, everything that made me mad about it still made me mad by the end. I still can’t deal much with Cindy because of how/why she came to be (plus that outfit, omg). But I enjoyed the gameplay and a lot of the characters. Plus, omg everything is so so pretty.

But the characters did grow on me. I’m especially fond of Prompto. And a lot of the little things in the game made me happy: fishing, taking pictures, tours, collecting recipes. The little things that made the boys happy were a lot of fun. A lot of the lady characters we met (Gentiana, Iris, Aranea, Monica) left me with grabby hands. The villain might be one of my favorite villains, tho. He’s like a hammier Vayne, which is just my favorite thing.

The plot was???????? Like they mashed ffvi and ffxii together, inserted a car trip, and said “fuck pacing we do what we want”. Though there were some things I enjoyed about the plot (for all its issues, Chapter 13 was probably my favorite).

All in all, it was pretty much what I expected. What I didn’t expect was how much the characters grew on me. I might end up writing fic (likely indulgent character studies or Gentiana/Aranea fic, because shit, that would be so swell.) 

This entry was originally posted at http://mako-lies.dreamwidth.org/153118.html.


 Wow, things have been crazy. Plus sick!

But Japan is good. Learning more Japanese. Doing better in class. Looking forward to a bit of a break. 

Been enjoying Yuri on Ice a lot (and so has the GF). Keeping up with family without any of the dread I usually associate with Christmas. Overall, doing good. Happy. 

This entry was originally posted at http://mako-lies.dreamwidth.org/152879.html.

Nov. 6th, 2016

 Good grief. I was actually writing/looking at my writing for the year, and I've only written about 25k words this year, which is... Wow. Like, I've written more every year since middle school. 

Granted, when I was student teaching I was pulling 12-16 hour days, and I've literally moved to another country this year. But still? I'm trying not to be too disappointed in myself. There's still two months, so I'm hoping I can get to at least ~40k words for the year, but I'm not going to hold my breath with how busy I've been (plus learning Japanese is taking a lot of my free time). 

This entry was originally posted at http://mako-lies.dreamwidth.org/152561.html.
The kawaii thing is probably never going to wear off. Sometimes my kids are so distracted by how cute I am they giggle all through when they're supposed to be working -__- 
It's impossible to be angry with them in any way, lol. 
In other news, I've started writing again? But I'm all over the board. SPN, Naruto (!), Free (god why do I like that show), Final Fantasy, etc. etc. I swear. I don't know that I'm in any dedicated fandom right now. BUT I have some published writing to post at some point, I'm just lazy af. 

(Crossposted with Imzy)

This entry was originally posted at http://mako-lies.dreamwidth.org/152155.html.


Still figuring out Imzy (should have time this weekend), but my handle over there is mako_lies.

I also have invites if anyone wants one :)

This entry was originally posted at http://mako-lies.dreamwidth.org/151962.html.
 I'm back in the classroom! Except now it is the Japanese classroom. 

I teach middle school/junior high school (grades 1, 2, 3). It's AWESOME. The kids are sweet, but also, I can't go two seconds without someone (usually a student (boy or girl) but sometimes a teacher) calling KAWAII! at me. I also get told I have a small face or a high nose multiple times a day. Evidently, small faces and nose bridges are super awesome here. My first day of school, some of my third-graders (14-15 years old) measured my face with a ruler. They were VERY excited afterwards, and learned how to say "I envy you" from their English teacher. It was an experience. 

Overall, things are going well. My Japanese still sucks, but I'm learning as diligently as I can. I usually have at least an hour every day I can devote to studying :)

I have a couple things written since last time I posted, I'll be working on posting those on LJ/DW here soon.

In other news: what is this Imzy thing I keep hearing about, and is it a replacement for tumblr????

This entry was originally posted at http://mako-lies.dreamwidth.org/151673.html.

Rare Pair Fest

Dear Writer,

Thank you so much for taking the time to write me a fic. I’m super pumped to see what you come up with!

I am really easy to please. I like everything from fluff to angst, to hurt/comfort, and basically anything else you can think of. Pretty much whatever you would like to write would make me happy. I’ll try and give you some direction by fandom, but really, I’d be happy with nearly anything.

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Like I said, I’m really really easy to please. I like a wide variety of things, and the ideas I’ve put here are just something to get you started thinking if you’re having trouble. I tend to prefer AUs that are more canon divergent than just a straight-up AU, and I really am not looking for non-con or underage sex. Other than that, though, go wild!

Thank you so much!

~mako_lies This entry was originally posted at http://mako-lies.dreamwidth.org/150614.html.

familiar faces

 Oh god, evidently I write Naruto fic now, that middle school fandom that won't die. 

Title: familiar faces
Fandom: Naruto
Character: Kankuro, Gaara
Rating: T
Word Count: 1,450
Notes: This work contains: power dynamics between the brothers, rape imagery (but no actual rape), past trauma, and past violence.
Summary: Gaara is going to be the next Kazekage. Somehow, Kankuro's having an easier time with that than his brother's new outlook.

(Or: Kankuro escapes the hospital only for Gaara to offer comfort. There is a history here.)

AO3 | DW | LJ

This entry was originally posted at http://mako-lies.dreamwidth.org/151022.html.

Jun. 12th, 2016

Really, really low because of the shit that's been happening in the real world, but I was re-reading some of the old fics I had started, and found absolute gold in the start of a fic set between s7 and s8 where Sam is turned into a dog and follows Kevin around. Kevin who is desperately trying to find Sam:

first unedited chunk of ficCollapse ) This entry was originally posted at http://mako-lies.dreamwidth.org/150288.html.
 I come home every night feeling like I have doused my brain with fire. Like I have spread my emotions out over the gooey hands of 90 teenagers. Like my skin has faded into translucence and everything beneath is showing. 

I am so tired in too many ways. 

This entry was originally posted at http://mako-lies.dreamwidth.org/149791.html.

...doing a bad job at this...

 3.What is your current OTP and why?  SPNCollapse ) FFXIIICollapse ) This entry was originally posted at http://mako-lies.dreamwidth.org/148767.html.

Fandom Meme: Day 2

Finals hit me damn hard, followed by an 8 day migraine. BUT here is Day 2 of the meme, with a new question.  

2.If you, AS YOURSELF, were to be written in as a character how would you be integrated into the storyline?

I’m not gonna touch this one. (The answer for SPN, of course, is that I would be dead.)


So, new question: Who is your main muse character, and what sparks the creativity?

SPNCollapse ) FFXIIICollapse ) This entry was originally posted at http://mako-lies.dreamwidth.org/148682.html.

30 Day Fandom Meta Meme

The 30 Day Fandom Meta Meme has been going around, and I thought I might hop on. I'm terrible at these 30 day things, but maybe I can get it to work. :) I decided to go with SPN (my current fandom) and FFXIII (because it's been my most prolific fandom). Here we are:

1. How did you get into this fandom?

SPNCollapse ) FFXIIICollapse ) This entry was originally posted at http://mako-lies.dreamwidth.org/148396.html.

SPN Ranking Meme

 I think a lot of people have done this at this point, but here's that character ranking meme that's going around. Overall, I'd say this is pretty accurate, though I feel like Henriksen, Amelia Richardson, Rufus, and Naomi should all be a little higher on the list than they are. Other than that, though, this is pretty much on par.

Read more...Collapse ) This entry was originally posted at http://mako-lies.dreamwidth.org/147539.html.


 Summergen revealed! I received Finding Linda Tran from the_ladykiki , which is awesome. Seriously great look at Kevin in the Veil. 

I had the pleasure of writing Lisa + Ben for wonderfulwrites 

Title: Even Losing You
Fandom: Supernatural
Character: Lisa, Ben
Rating: T
Word Count: 2,212
Notes: Title from Elizabeth Bishop's "One Art." Memory loss. 
Summary: The art of losing isn't hard to master. Lisa's getting quite good at it.

AO3 | DW | LJ
This entry was originally posted at http://mako-lies.dreamwidth.org/147387.html.

Aug. 31st, 2015

 School is all-consuming already. I don't even know how I'm going to manage, haha. BUT MY CLASSES ARE ALL PRETTY AWESOME. (Even my Shakespeare class has a good teacher, so I may survive.)

Still working on my Kevin Big Bang fic (and thinking I may even make the deadline), I'm suddenly looking at the reality of ~20k worth of words of abo character study, specifically about mother/son relationships with a kind-of romantic thing on the side. IDEK what this fic is supposed to be at this point, but writing it always fills me with glee and leaves me cackling into the distance. So whatever anyone else thinks, I'm pumped. 

This entry was originally posted at http://mako-lies.dreamwidth.org/147147.html.

Writing Meme

Stolen from so many people:

I currently have 125 works archived at AO3. Pick a number from 1 (the most recent) to 125 (the first thing I posted there), and I'll tell you three things I currently like or three random tidbits about it.

If you're looking for SPN, numbers lower than 30 should work. If you're looking for FF, number higher than 30 should work. :) This entry was originally posted at http://mako-lies.dreamwidth.org/146773.html.

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